CHOSEN

The Christmas song "Mary Did You Know" brings me to tears every time I hear it. Today I found myself feeling a lot like Mary and little sorry for myself. I was questioning God as to why he would have chosen me to be the mother Esther at this crazy, difficult and seemingly inconvenient time in my life?  None of this seemed to make any sense to me and I wasn't sure I was worthy of the call. So many others around me are waiting so why me? why now? and how is this ever going to work financially? The financial aspect of an International adoption is daunting in normal timing but in four weeks I just didn't see a way.  

However, much like Mary, this has been very amazing news for our family. Mary responded to God with belief and obedience and I am going to do the same. Becoming Esther's mother is a privilege! Just as there is pain in childbirth and motherhood, there may be pain in the privilege of becoming her mother and there may be suffering involved for our family but we were CHOSEN! In Luke 1:28 the Angel told Mary she was "highly favored." Her submission to God's plan would cost her dearly, yet she was willing to be God's servant. God looks at our obedience and trust – usually not the qualifications that man might look upon.  God will often choose and use the most unlikely of choices – much like the Savage family.

Know let me share the rest of the story.....today I was texting a friend during my pity party and we vowed to pray for each other (as she is going through some huge things too). We are praying for trust and patience and timing for each other as we both embark on life changing journeys involving children. Literally five minutes after ending our conversation I received a fairly large donation from a TOTAL stranger!  Yep - God's got this!