Joy in the tears

There are few things that I like less than being reminded that there are times in life when things do not go my way – or the way I want them to go. I heard it as a child from my parents and I found myself saying it to my daughter recently. Being able to hear that is hard sometimes – despite your age or life experiences. Being willing to accept that is a sign of maturity.  I want things the way I want them and when they aren’t happening like I want – I feel it and express my displeasure. Sometimes I do it quietly and maturely.  Sometimes…not so much.  I get frustrated like everyone else.  I try to handle it well.  Sometimes I fail.

Things were going so rapidly with our adoption that I just assumed it would continue to go that way. Feeling a little sad that everything has come to a halt but still knowing God is in control and that Satan is not going to win this battle in my mind! I have no control over the process so there is NO way for me to predict how much longer or why it’s taking so long and I just want to hold my baby and I feel a little helpless(I am only human).  Suffering is inevitable, and we should always expect tears. But by investing our tears we can not only grow from them, but eventually find joy through them. In praying our tears, we remember God's grace, behold the cross and find assurance in glory yet to come!

We still have $5,000 to raise and if they called us today and told us to get plane tickets we would not have the funds to cover them so we know that God’s timing is perfect and that day is coming and He knows when the money will be here so that the calls can come in! In the meantime, Esther is in good hands and being well cared for and prayed for daily. God is preparing our family and her heart to be ready to join us!

“Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness. I say to myself, “The LORD is my portion; therefore I will wait for him.” The LORD is good to those whose hope is in him, to the one who seeks him;” Lamentations 3:22-25